Alright, well this is the "life." I usually try not to tell others about my life, because it gets personal. Lately i've been thinking about life, and all the roller coasters it comes with. I don't see the point of living. If you ever have felt this way, (which I think most of us either will or have at some point in our lives) you know, that... well, life isn't easy. I'm not saying that anyone has ever said that it was or is going to be.. But, I just don't get it. Example 1; Death. You see, lately, a lot of people have been dying. Well, not "alot", but more then there should be; ya know? There was this kid, named Kendall, and oh boy.. he did know how to make a person smile. If he didn't make you laugh, there was something wrong with you. I remember, he would always go to dodge-ball every Wednesday night, probably to show people, he could throw one hell of a dodge-ball. I remember him coming up to me and saying, you may wanna just stay behind me.. because, i can throw, also catch, not tryin to brag or anything. & Immediately I said, oh? Girls can't throw or catch eh? He felt so bad, and let me do what I wanted to from there on :) It was really funny, he realized that I could throw, and catch as well.. Well anyways, back to the life thing.. I have been "heartbroken" before I guess.. If that's what you wanna call it.. But since that, everything's just seemed to go downhill. I've lost many friends, changed, I guess, and life, isn't going the way it should. It seems like none else understands where I'm coming from. And the society we live in today! I tell you what. You can't go anywhere without getting looked at weird, or judged. I mean really people?! No one's perfect, so don't be pointing out my flaws, because I don't have my whole life to point out yours. I usually try not to judge people; because I know.. I'm not even close to being perfect. I never have felt beautiful. People say sometimes that I am.. But I don't feel that way. Ever. I'm constantly getting called either a slut, or a fat ass. I mean really people.. You have nothing better to do with your life, then point out MY flaws, I know, I can be a slut, and I know, i'm not exactly skinny, but you don't need to keep bringing that up, I know, I know me.
I guess, I just don't know anymore.. I feel so, alone... Like no one even cares anymore..
Not trying to draw attention... Just stating the me.. The real me...
